Ahhh, yes, the sound of New Year’s resolutions echoing amongst the egg nog and discarded stick-on bows! I recently received an email from a reader who wants to moderate her drinking, smoking, eating, etc. Her husbands is all for it, but she is secretly afraid that his concern for her health isn’t enough to motivate her. She tries to cut back, but soon the old habits return. She wonders if maybe she doesn’t love him enough to stop doing these things for his sake.
Well, Dear Reader, the first rule for changing yourself is that you must do it for yourself. You stop an activity because it offends YOU. Any other motive – including the beginning of a new year – will most probably lead to failure.
Try this simple test: Imagine that you’re no longer with your husband. The activities that he objected to have finally become so annoying that you have quit on your own, just because you want to. If you can honestly tell yourself that you can (and would) stop even if he were not in your life, then you’re ready to do it on your own.
Changing your ways just to make your husband happy won’t work. Yes, at first you’ll enjoy his approval, but once that initial gratification wears off, you’ll start to quietly resent him. You might not admit it to yourself, but it will be there and will come out in an argument or in the form of you starting up again behind his back. The worst thing you can do for your relationship is to change your behaviors for his sake.
I know we’re all taught to not be “selfish.” But I know of no other way to stop an addiction or any behavioral problem other than through the instinctive motivator of self-interest. Every time I see somebody try to do something solely for the sake of another, it backfires. The behavior isn’t authentic and it isn’t honest. Let’s say you stop smoking just because a significant other is on your back about it. Think about all the factors you’re overlooking, like the damage to your body, the smell, the expense, etc. If you honestly believe that the risk is worth the pleasure, then it’s your call. It is, after all, your life. But don’t expect to enjoy your husband’s approval while ignoring your own needs and desires (rational or otherwise). It’s a contradiction, and contradictions always fail.
Sometimes it’s good to ask yourself, “Does this habit make sense or not? What does it do for my life?” I would rather see you approach your partner and make a case as to why you think what you’re doing isn’t such a problem. And, by make a case, I don’t mean being defensive by saying, “Get over it. Live with it.” What I mean is presenting a logical case as to why it makes sense to keep doing what you’re doing. At least now you’re being open about it. And then be open to your husband’s challenges. You claim you love him and that he loves you. Along with that should come respect. The odds of your relationship surviving open communication are much greater than if you perpetuate a lie.
I knew a man years ago who took great pleasure in eating. He was only moderately overweight, and took small doses of medication for blood pressure and cholesterol. His wife was constantly on his case about eating. Finally, out of frustration, he told her, calmly and logically, “I like eating. I’ll curb it here and there, but I’m not going to give it up. It makes me happy, and I’m not going to be miserable. If it takes a few years off my life, then so be it. I want to do it.” I had to admire him: Agree or disagree, it was his choice. And far more honest than if he resentfully lived a lie to please her.
We come into this world on our own and we leave it on our own. It’s up to us to confront the choices before us and make the decisions that seem to be the best. Don’t let anyone take this away from you. Let loved ones challenge you — even welcome it — and carefully assess what they’re saying. Appreciate that they cared enough to confront you. But don’t change just because they want you to. No matter what you decide, you can only be true to them by being true to yourself.